I don't know why.

My legs shake and my stomach turns when I see you, and I dont know why.

I smile when you smile, and I don't know why.

I want to just hold your hand for a moment, and I don't know why.

I try hard to make you laugh, and I don't know why.

I look forward to talking with you, and I don't know why.

I feel awful when I forget to tell you something, and I don't know why.

I sneak a glance at you whenever I can, and I don't know why.

I feel both awkard and happy around you, and I don't know why.

I like taking you out and seeing you have fun, and I don't know why.

I find myself praying on your behalf, and I don't know why.

I enjoy learning about you, and I don't know why.

I hope you like seeing me to, and I don't know why.

I want to know how you truly feel about me, and I don't know why.

The Positive List

                                                            Things I  Love

• Waking up and finding out I can go back to sleep.
• Laying down on a nice green hill.
• Squashing a spider.
• Gummy Bears
• When I finally figure out how to fix something.
• Blue ink pens.
• Hearing a great song I haven't heard in years.
• Getting paid to do something easy.
• Showering after a camp out.
• When I can be weird.
• Using my dog as a pillow.
• Calvin and Hobbes...obviously.
• You, for reading this.
• When the light is green.
• Cheesecake.
• Luigi.
• Winning by a landslide.
• Nearly anything about space.
• Sounding intelligent about a subject I know nothing about.
• Listening to interesting people.
• When the computer finally boots up.
• Star Wars.
• Venting to a friend.
• Peanut Butter sandwiches.
• Living so close to mountains.
• Going on vacations.
• Getting my money's worth at a buffet.
• Not following the rules in sports.
• Hugs.
• Yelling really loud.
• Finishing at just the nick of time.
• Getting new stuff.
• Sleeping in class, and getting away with it.
• Having nothing to do.
• Saturday.
• New stuff.
• Finally finishing this post.

The Negative list.

                 THINGS I HATE

• Waking up knowing it's going to be a hard day.
• Shoes coming untied almost immediately after tying them.
• Useless, lazy, busy work.
• Cold mornings.
• When my name get's spelled wrong.
• Waiting for a girl to reply to a text.
• When she never does.
• When my dog eats my food.
• Group assignments.
• Not knowing what to talk about.
• When I tell a joke and no one laughs, or worse, when they think I'm serious.
• That the smell of broccoli makes me gag.
• When a light is left on at night.
• Red lights.
• When I over-analyze what someone says.
• Cinnamon candy.
• That I don't have very good grades.
• People who judge someone's character based on athletic ability.
• That the new Star Wars isn't coming out until next year.
• Random musical numbers outside of a musical. 
• Having to wear a tie.
• Casual, unnecessary swearing.
• People that think anonymity means they can be a jerk.
• Computer crashes.
• Spending money.
• Not spending money.
• Remembering embarrassing moments as I fall asleep.
• When I see people kissing in the halls.
• Power outages.
• The taste of gluten-free bread.
• Deadlines.
• Writer's block.
• When something doesn't live up to it's hype.
• Feeling tired even when it's not that late.
• Feelings of inadequacy. 
• Being ignored.
• Getting treated as if I have low intelligence or have some sort of mental disorder.
• That that last thing seems to happen a lot and I don't know why.
• That my cousin's a drunk and some other's have lost there way.
• That my grandfather hates my faith and church, and no longer wants anything to do with me or my family.
• Negative lists.
• Forced irony.  

Only Contact

Imagine aliens landed on earth and you have been chosen to be the ambassador for all of humanity. As you arrive they explain to you that they have never visited earth before and for whatever reason they have no plans to return. They ask of you for only one simple thing, what it means to be human. What would you tell them? They will never have the chance to hear anything else, and what is said will define humanity for them for millennium. 

Would you tell them about our cultures or our history? Explain our physical capabilities or handicaps? Perhaps how we think or feel, the simple things that make up our day to day life? What does it mean? 

Well crap, I have no idea. That's why I'm asking you.

Though if I would have to guess, on a most basic level some of it would be striving to be something better. Desires and needs to be known and heard. To love and be loved. The need to create our masterpieces our legacies. To me, it seems that throughout our history and our cultures are inspired by, at least in part, by these basic necessities.

Of course this is just one human's opinion, and a great thing about us is that we all have different ones. Agree with me or not, how would you describe humanity?